Some more thoughts!!!!!

So, im finally outta my gynae ward,and now I've landed into Surgery for atleast two whole months. Got my test marks in gynae,and well,...........MISS EFFICIENT has got 80% marks, better not tell anyone, it would ruin my reputation in the university.
Gosh!!!!these surgery people are total nuts, they want us to actually complete the evenings and do not let us go until 8:00 p.m.so I don't reach home until it's 10:00 p.m. and then I ahve to come alone at night, me the poor little child !!!!
I had to do the dressing of a patient yesterday, suffering from an abscess(swellings full of pus), and thought it was dirty, I was more aware fo the pain,that I feel,each time I touched her to clean,she cried out with pain.
Sometimes,I feel,I won't be able to go through with this,I'll stop going to the hospital and would not see any patient anymore,but then I realize, if people who're thought to be as brave as me ,will act thsi way,then who will work for removal of sufferings from this world.So I summon up my courage and stand upto all these tasks.
And good that I think this way,because well......I've got friends around me who loose consciousness when the see blood........hahahaha!!!!!
sorry,shouldn't laugh,I could have been that weak myself,but thanks to Allah,He's given me the strength and courage to face all this, and thus,it is my duty, I feel to become a very good doctor.
I hope and I pray that I succeed in this task bestowed on me.Ameen